Its meaning is when u are sad u want a person who rab your back and u hug that person and cry and tell all to that person and the person understand u and make u comfort this is the wish but i am afraid of that the person around me dont understand me and and don't fell what i feel and i am afraid what he think about me and what if he reveal my secret and use my weakness against me so i put all my feelings inside me i know i may have a depression but in this way i hurt a lot but i fell secure